My husband and I have been married for two years. The first year, because my wife just started working, we “plan”. Until the beginning of this year, we just decided to have a baby, luckily just “released” was pregnant right away.
I’ve heard that pregnant women have a hard time. But when I saw my wife pregnant, I realized how happy a man is not to be pregnant.
From the second month of pregnancy, my wife started having morning sickness. She was originally a person who “can eat the whole world”, but when she was pregnant, she hated everything. Every time she comes to a meal, just hearing the smell of rice and meat, she rushes to the toilet, when she comes back, her face is pale and moody like a dead leaf.
In my married life, I am inherently a person with a high need for “sex”. However, for several months when my wife was pregnant, I did not dare to touch her. Because during the prenatal examination, the doctor said that my wife’s cervix is a bit short, so I have to keep it.
And also because it was our first pregnancy, we were both worried that sex might affect the baby more or less. In the spirit of “safe is your friend”, I decided to sacrifice my desires.
My wife was angry when she heard that I was going to “peek the cake to pay”, even though I had previously “turned on the green light”. (Artwork: Sohu)
However, I am at a young age, every time I lie near my wife, I still cannot avoid uncomfortable feelings. Sometimes I couldn’t sleep, I even went online to watch “black movies”, once caught by my wife, making me confused and embarrassed.
More than anyone else, my wife understands how much my needs are. Normally, she is very pampering her husband, as long as I want, she is ready to meet. But now she’s so tired that she can’t even swallow, let alone sleep.
Once, while the couple was watching TV, my wife suddenly whispered:
– Have you ever thought about finding a way to “solve the need” outside?
– What are you talking about, I’m not an omnivore. If so, I’ll probably kill you, right?
– Treat what? Come to think of it, it’s not that serious. At my office, a sister during her pregnancy even gave her husband money to “peel the cake to pay” outside, as long as he used safety measures and didn’t develop feelings or “root strings”. “Whatever is fine with people.
When my wife said that, I was moved to tears. She must love her husband very much, think about her husband very much, to be able to say such words.
I admit that I am not the type of man who likes to flirt with butterflies. Before, I loved a lot, but every love is very serious, never “fishing with two hands”, never cheating or betraying. After getting married, I never thought that I would have an affair or “go to a girl”.
However, life is unpredictable. Once, I went to a party with my friends to send a close friend off to work abroad. After drinking, we invited each other to sing karaoke.
While ivory drunk, a friend called more “peach” serving to sing along. And that day, I did something wrong with my wife.
Before that happened, my conscience was a little guilty, wanted to stop. But suddenly I remembered the words my wife used to say, and I thought I was simply “peeling the cake to pay for it”, just like if you were hungry, you had to eat, when you were thirsty, you had to drink, not having an affair or a love affair. Along with long-repressed desires that make me want to go crazy, I decided to “close my eyes and move my feet”.
Of course, I didn’t tell my wife about this, although I think she would sympathize if she knew. But I don’t want others to know, unless I don’t do it.
The singing bar employee didn’t know how she got my phone number and immediately texted me, the content of the invitation. Unfortunately, I didn’t have time to read the message before my wife read it.
That day, I just came out of the toilet and saw my wife standing at the door, holding a phone in her hand, a very unsightly face: “What is this message?”
I looked at the message, my head immediately “bouncing the number” thinking about what happened. I was about to lie to my wife to relieve her sadness, but she said: “If you are honest, you will be lenient, if not, don’t blame me”.
I think, then, “honest is a lying father”, so I honestly tell my wife everything, and add the sentence: “I know you understand but I’m still very sad because I feel guilty. I swear. It’s the first and will be the last.”
However, as soon as I finished the sentence, my wife burst into tears. Not only crying, she also used enough harsh words to criticize and scold me.
After that, the wife also called her mother-in-law, her sister-in-law “confessed” me when my wife was tired of being pregnant and went “sneaky” outside. Less than an hour later, a family meeting took place at my house.
Needless to say, my parents and sister scolded me badly. I told my wife that she had “give the green light” to me before, but after listening to it, my sister scolded me even more: “Don’t be crafty anymore.
What in the world does a wife do to induce her husband to “peek the cake and pay for it”.
After that day, my wife took her things back to her grandmother’s house. She said she would lie to me on a business trip, temporarily not wanting to see my face. She also said she didn’t want her grandparents to know about this.
These days, I miss my wife very much, but she absolutely forbids me to come. She said just seeing me makes her uncomfortable, short of breath, bad mood will affect her baby.
At home alone, I have time to reflect on everything. I admit I was wrong. But apparently my wife gave the “green light” that I could go outside to “deal with the need”. Why is she acting like she never said anything now?
Is it because my wife blurts it out or does it want to “set” to test my heart? Women are not simple at all. I know what to do to wash away all sins?
