Al-Marsad newspaper: Saudi actress and model Joud Aziz revealed, through a video clip to her followers for the first time, about her suffering throughout her life, due to a congenital heart defect, and she said: “I went through a difficult period. Death was more merciful to me.”
Joud explained during the video: I was born with a congenital defect in my heart, as its size is larger than the normal size that is supposed to be in my body because my bones are small.
She continued: Some time ago, I went through forty days, which were the most difficult days in my life, after the doctor told me that I could sleep and never wake up again. Imagine if I went to the bathroom, I would gasp and my heart would beat hard.
She continued: I was forbidden from all kinds of feelings. I was forbidden to laugh, I was forbidden to read or watch anything that affected me, and I was forbidden from leaving the house. There was a device they installed for me to monitor my pulse. I might be sleeping and I would receive a call from the hospital because of the rapid heartbeat. I would tell them, “I was… I am asleep and dreaming, what is my fault?
She added: Death was more merciful to me. I am alive, but as if I am dead and forbidden. I feel that if I even spoke, it would be an effort for me, but I sit and look at the wall. It was a difficult period, Lord, and no one went through it.
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