Hank von Helvete – – Hans-Erik is still with me

MANSTAD IN FREDRIKSTAD (Dagbladet): There is snow in the air, but it is the fog that makes visibility difficult. The colors are gone, everything is black and white – just like life for many after Hans Erik -Dyvik Husby (49) died suddenly and unexpectedly a month ago.

He was long better known as Hank von Helvete.

But it was as much in the role as himself, the versatile cultural communicator, that he became a popular figure.

Grief, longing and questions

– Welcome inside. I just woke up, looks like a roof race. Slept so badly last night. I struggle like that with sleep after Hans-Erik passed away. Everything is painful and difficult. “Time heals all wounds”, it is said, but now I do not know if I can believe so much in it, says Jeanette Engh Johansen.

The weaver woman (35) was Hans-Erik’s girlfriend.

Now she is left with grief, loss and questions. She spoke to him a few hours before he died.

– A nice guy with a big heart

– I called him at 9 pm on Thursday night. A short conversation, he was pleased. Nothing indicated that this would be the last time we would say anything to each other. I talked to a friend of his with whom he had spent the evening, and there was nothing wrong or unusual with Hans-Erik.

Would move to Halden

On the night of Friday 19 November, Hans-Erik Dyvik Husby was found dead at the bottom of Slottsparken against Karl Johan. Lighted candles now and then testify to the crime scene. He was, as he always was in life, on his way somewhere. But the body did not want more, he fell dead.

– When I got a phone call that morning, I could not believe it, she says with a sad look.

– We had so many plans. He liked Østfold and østfoldinger, the mentality down here. The way people are. We often sat on Finn and looked at houses. We were going to Halden, find a place there and move together.

Two intense years

Hans-Erik and Jeanette spent almost two years together. It was two intense years, she says. They met at the beginning of the pandemic, in March 2020 when everything was closed.

– Hans-Erik found me on TikTok, says Jeanette.

– I made small video clips with a person I called “Lilly”, and it was her that Hans-Erik became curious about. He contacted me, and since then it has been the two of us.

Jeanette has shared care for her son. Therefore, she was mainly with Hans-Erik every other week. Sometimes he was visiting her all the way out in the open sea, on Fredrikstad’s west coast with a view of the Tønsberg archipelago.

Was tired and bored

– He became my rescue, and I became his. The corona became extra problematic for musicians and artists. He was bored, had several projects, but no gigs. He missed being an artist. She says that lately he has been tired and corona-tired.

– Maybe that was the reason why we were so welded together. When we were together, it was just us – all the time, around the clock.

The settlement with the bad past

Hans-Erik Dyvik Husby was, as many have pointed out in memoirs and interviews after his death, so much more than the rocker “with a rocket in his ass”. He was an actor, singer, entertainer, conversation partner – and not least a friend and a guy with a big and warm heart.

Lost unborn child

Jeanette bore a heavy and unresolved grief when she met Hans-Erik. Four years earlier, in 2016, her unborn child died just before birth, she says.

– I lost my Lucas. Went with him dead for two days, before I had to give birth to him.

Jeanette looks down and closes her eyes again. The loss of the unborn still hurts.

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– I went into therapy, but I still had a lot of mental pain when I met Hans-Erik. He helped me through the grief. I’m doing much better now. Lucas’ stillbirth revealed an unknown disease I have, a blood clot disease, she says.

The loss of a mother

Hans-Erik Dyvik Husby became known as a vocalist in Turboneger in the 90’s. He left in 2010, after 17 years in the band. For many years he struggled with heroin addiction.

Hans-Erik knew about grief and the shadows of life. He knew what he was talking about, and could comfort and help others, she says.

– He lost his mother, Else, on his sixth birthday. He talked a lot about her. Her death shaped him, making him vulnerable and sensitive. But his grief and loss, made him strong too, in a way. So that he could see and help others in their grief.

Fear sad Christmas

When Dagbladet meets her a couple of days before Christmas Eve, the Christmas tree in the living room is half-decorated. Wrapped gifts are missing name tags, and a couple of bags from the “Pol” Santa are waiting for her to open and enjoy some well-deserved, merciful drops.

– I have dreaded this Christmas, she says:

– I do not think so much about it, do not want to think. Just know it’s going to be empty. Hans-Erik is with me, he comforts me – because I think about everything he said and taught me. So, I’m staying up, I have to. Besides, I have my son, and that’s the most important thing in life. Be there for him.

Jeanette goes out on the porch to light the day’s first cigarette. The gray snowflake wraps around her like a dirty snowball.

– The short time I had with Hans-Erik has been like a lifelong race. He comforted me then, and he comforts me now. He is with me in everything I do.

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