Boston Red Sox outfielder Jarren Duran has made a startling revelation, disclosing that he attempted suicide during the 2022 season.The admission comes as he battled both on-field struggles and harsh criticism from fans.

The revelation is featured in The Clubhouse: A Year With the Red Sox, a Netflix documentary set to be released Tuesday. the fourth episode delves into Duran’s challenges and low points during that period.

the Dark Cloud of 2022

The episode highlights a series of errors and mistakes Duran made during the 2022 season, painting a picture of immense pressure and self-doubt.

It honestly felt like a dark cloud over me. Because it’s so easy to look past the positive things for me and to grab onto the negative things.
Jarren Duran, in “The Clubhouse: A Year With the Red Sox”

Duran described the depth of his despair, revealing the constant internal battle he faced.

I would think every day, ‘I can’t [expletive] do this.’ I couldn’t deal with telling myself how much I sucked every [expletive] day. Like I was already hearing it from fans and, like, what they say to me. It’s like, I haven’t told myself 10 times worse than that in the mirror. That was,like,a really tough time for me.
Jarren Duran, in “The Clubhouse: A Year With the Red Sox”

Duran described trying to shoot himself with a rifle, but the weapon did not discharge.

Duran’s Journey: Highs and Lows

• Mental Health Struggles: Duran has been open about his mental health challenges throughout his five seasons in the major leagues. In 2022, he admitted, I don’t really talk to my family about my low points because I’m so closed off to everybody.
• Internal Battles: He further explained, I’m kind of just tearing myself up internally and get pretty depressed and stuff like that…I find it hard to reach out to people because I don’t want to bother other people with my problems. I kind of just build it up inside myself,which obviously makes everything a lot worse.
• Resilience: Despite these struggles, Duran has shown resilience.In 2024, he stated, I went through some tough times when I didn’t think I would be hear. But I’m still here, still fighting.
• All-Star Recognition: Last season, Duran was named Most Valuable Player of the All-Star game.
• Controversy: Though, weeks later, Duran faced a two-game suspension for shouting a homophobic slur at a fan during a game. He later apologized, saying, I just let the moment get the best of me.Just said something I shouldn’t be saying.