Holly Madison, the former star of “The Girls Next Door,” has revisited her experiences at the Playboy Mansion, offering candid insights into her relationship with Hugh Hefner and life within the iconic residence. Madison, now 45, shared her perspective on the podcast “In Your Dreams,” hosted by Owen Teal.

Intimate Life with Hefner

Madison addressed the dynamics of her intimate life with Hefner, emphasizing the stark contrast between private moments and group settings.She clarified that the 53-year age difference between her and Hefner, who passed away in 2017 at the age of 91, did not hinder their personal connection.

When it was just me and he, things were much more normal than people imagine.
Holly Madison

Though, she expressed strong aversion to the group encounters.

With the other people – no. It was revolting. I hated this thing. I have clearly showed that I hate it.
Holly Madison

Challenging Perceptions

Teal questioned the notion of a “normal” relationship given the circumstances, a sentiment Madison acknowledged is widely shared. She also addressed criticisms she faced regarding the age gap, especially on social media.

There was a period in which I could not upload anything on social networks without any dumbbell comment, ‘Oh, old t*pki.’ May some people with age really have any, but I haven’t seen anything that is all that bad.
Holly Madison

Madison, who now hosts the podcast “Girls Next Level,” humorously added that the dimly lit environment often obscured any perceived imperfections, quipping, All cats are gray in the dark.

Pressure and Unpleasant Experiences

Madison was involved with hefner from 2001 to 2008. She has previously spoken about feeling pressured to engage in group sexual activities with other women. In a March interview with people, coinciding with her documentary series “Leethally Blonde,” which focuses on victims in the erotic industry, she detailed some of the more bizarre aspects of life at the mansion.

There were trays everywhere – in every bathroom, on the tennis courts, next to the pool. And there were boxes of handkerchiefs, Pepto Bismol, Vaseline, Baby Oil, Sunscreen – Any improvised lubricants. It was weird. My most unpleasant experiences were not as related to the magazine itself as with the relationship with both Hef and some of the other girls. I was happy to pose for Playboy.I’ve always been a fan of photo shoots, I always wanted to be in the magazine.I even worked in the studio were the playmates were filmed – it was super fun. For me things are much more layered.
Holly Madison