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A Doctor’s Perspective: Finding Strength and Purpose After Life-Altering Injury
A pivotal encounter with a doctor who used a wheelchair profoundly impacted me, illuminating the possibility of a medical career despite physical challenges. This experience was a turning point, demonstrating that disability need not be a barrier to professional fulfillment.
Now, the visible scar I carry serves as an unexpected asset in my medical practice. It immediately signals my own journey as a patient, fostering a unique connection and encouraging greater openness from those I treat. Patients often find it easier to confide in me, recognizing a shared understanding of vulnerability.despite these professional advantages, daily life presents persistent obstacles. The lack of accessible facilities, especially restrooms, remains a important and exclusionary issue. Similarly, the prevalence of steps without accompanying ramps in many public spaces is a constant reminder of a world not designed with inclusivity in mind.The dismissive attitude of “we don’t have many disabled people here” when confronted with accessibility barriers is particularly galling, highlighting a flawed premise that accessibility is only necessary if a disabled person is already present. Navigating these physical barriers, like having to detour to find a safe crossing point, serves as a daily affirmation that the world is not inherently built for me.
Regarding the individual responsible for my injury, I have minimal knowlege and no desire to learn more. While some might expect a pursuit of restorative justice or a need for forgiveness, I found neither necessary. Anger was never a part of my emotional response. I was informed that the person responsible had jumped, was later incarcerated, and then deported. This outcome was unsettling, as I wished to avoid any further negative repercussions stemming from the incident.
My partner and family, while perhaps experiencing their own emotions, respected my space to process my feelings. this was not always the case with others, including some healthcare professionals attending to me. I recall instances where their expressions of anger, such as “I would have wanted to kill that man,” felt overwhelming and challenging to navigate.
The sheer randomness of the event was, paradoxically, what prevented me from harboring anger. This perspective is often difficult for others to grasp. I grappled with countless “what if” scenarios – what if I had been there moments earlier or later? These thoughts created a disorienting loop, leading nowhere.Ultimately, I made the conscious decision to prioritize my healing.
This article is adapted from an episode of the BBC World Service radio program “Outlook,” presented by Asya Fouks and produced by Florian Bohr and Andrea Kennedy.
Grace Spence Green has recently released her book, “to Exist As I Am: A Doctor’s Notes on Recovery and Radical Acceptance.”
